As I mentioned in my last post, I recently finished The Miracle Morning, by Hal Elrod, and he encourages his readers to get up early (GULP!) and invest in six different practices: Silence, Affirmation, Visualization, Exercise, Reading, Scribing (or journaling–and yes, that comes out to SAVERS.)
I’ve been doing a lot of Contemplative Prayer as the “Silence” portion of my routine (apparently I need to blog about what that is), but this morning I opted to do some Intercession, a practice I’ve been growing in recently. In particular, I had a dream last night that involved some old co-workers and it was odd enough that I felt compelled to pray for them. As I prayed, I focused on my old boss, a wise woman, who had great respect for my skills and was a rock during the worst of my husband’s illness. As I prayed, I thanked God for her and prayed His blessings for her. At that point, a strange thing happened…I was overwhelmed with gratitude for her! I thanked God for her example in leadership, for all of the mentoring time she gave to me, day in and day out…especially as it became less clear to both of us how it was precisely that God desired me to lead. Even as I sit here and write this I’m tearing up–perhaps it’s because she continued to invest in me as a person when we both knew there wasn’t any place in my job for my gifts to flourish.
My affirmation for 2015 seems to be this: That God desires to bless me and he desires me to be a blessing to others. That’s taken from Genesis 12:2-3 where God makes his covenant with Abraham–and which I felt free to appropriate for myself. (You know, because God desires to “bless the nations through [him]” and I’m a part of the nations.) This is a big deal for me. Taking this on as a personal promise means shifting from being a “glass half empty” to a “glass half full” person. It means being positive, being optimistic: God desires to bless me. And the externals of my life have not changed. My husband is still ill, I am still making too little money. But I have a future and a hope, and God desires to bless me. And he showed me this morning how it is that he desires me to be a blessing to others.
I called my boss’ number this morning and left her a message of appreciation. I hope that she is able to receive the gratitude I have for her as God’s blessing and gift. So this promise begins to be made in me: God desires to bless me and I desire to bless others. Amen.
Lord, though I often don’t act like it, I do desire to receive your blessings. Let me pass along your blessings to those around me, my loved ones, my neighbors, my church and my community. Amen.